Wow. it's been so long since I have set my eyes on you blog. How are you? I'm doing well, thanks. Starting over is sooo good for me. I feel great today, the sun is shining, it's a wonderful feeling to have the sun shine on your face. It's just another one of those amazing gifts God has given us to help us out with our daily struggles. You know, even if you were blind, deaf or disabled in any way, even in a coma in a bed somewhere, if you turn your face to the sun it WILL shine on you! And it feels the same to everyone, it's truly a gift that everyone gets to enjoy. It gives us vitamins for our bodies to absorb, it warms your skin and it does something to our insides too. It lifts our spirits, even if we were inside feeling its warmth through a window. Always remember to take a moment and feel God's warmth on your face...it's like a kiss from heaven...especially made for you! xoxoxo♥
Well, as of the New Year I have taken on a different way of life. I am a happier person, I sleep better and I feel much better in my head. This new change has also brought many other good things for me. I have started a new job at a local nursery. My background is in horticulture and I have found that getting back to it has dramatically changed my outlook on life.
Just being around blooming plants lightens my heart and just does something to me. The smell of a freshly opening Hyacinth is so lovely to me, it makes my heart smile! I am glad that I had the opportunity to take on this job, of course with the help of my parents and grandmother also taking Autumn off the bus and staying with her until I get home!!! I just knew that getting back to work was going to be something good for us.
You know, I have been talking to God a lot more lately. I ask him to lend an ear and I ask him for guidance. I also Thank Him for all the blessings he has already bestowed upon me. I am grateful for so much in my life, and I will continue to serve Him in every way possible. It is easier to wallow in grief when the chips are down, but I have learned that this is the only life I have, this is the only body I carry around. Bringing happiness to myself should always be a part of my life. Allowing others to help and be thankful in tough times, staying positive when it is almost impossible to be, and allowing my heart to open to forgiveness are some of the things that I have learned to do throughout all of this. I'm still working on much more but for right now I am taking it one day at a time. Today is a good day and I am thnkful for it! Tomorrow is tomorrow...but I still feel positive about it and even if the sun doesn't shine, the birds will still sing and the flowers will still bloom. Thank you God for this day. ~Nicole
Yes, finally I took the time to pick up the needle and thread and I am stitching in this sunny, warm kitchen by the window... watching the birds. It feels so warm and cozy in this sunny room......I think I'll take a nap.......................................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
It was a beautiful day for a Christmas pageant. The date was postponed originally due to the "blizzard" we had before Christmas. All of the angels were there and of course the animals and shepherds too. This year Autumn got to hold the Star that summoned the Three Kings. She would only do the part if her friend Hannah would do it with her.
So...here they are carrying the Star into Bethlahem with all of the angels following behind. What a sight they were, I guess I am partial because I am their Sunday school teacher after all! They really were adorable.
These are just some of the memories that I will chrish forever!
Well, I sure am glad that this year is officially over. I have never actually said that before this past year. My life just took a drastic turn in the downward direction and all I can say is...bring on 2010! Without really getting into the details of my misery, I have to say that if I didn't have my beautiful daughter Autumn by my side I would be a basket case. I have been using her as my crutch to get through the day for a while now. She is the sunshine that warms my heart. She'll never understand just what she does for me. I tell her constantly how much I love her, but when I say it I mean it with every inch of my being. She is my entire life now. I live for her.
My parents are the most wonderful people on this earth. They have been there for us and always have been. I never thought that at this point in my life I would be where I am today. It truly is weighing very heavily on my heart. I have to find a place inside where I can go and find some inner peace. I also know that I have to seek out a support group. I have been told that it helps with the healing process.
I look forward to posting again in the near future. It is something I intend to keep up in the New Year. After all, this is something that brings me joy and that is a positive thing for me. Good luck and love to you all out there this year. May you find peace and happiness all your days.